Finally, this dead zone gives me a donut hole sized window. I was elsewhere when I started this, was going to deactivate with a different misrepresented piece of "broken-broke in"...but I got scared. What if the chance came up that I could finish things I started... what if I can't... do I know what I'm doing... not really... will I be able to squeeze thru the next tiny donut hole without accidently biting myself for being simultaneously good and bad for clueless and accidental success... what am I babbling about... who knows... I haven't been able to work on my stuff since a cuckoo sang of chasing away possibilities.